I am not happy. But as Chinese New Year is coming,
I need to pretend to be really excited and smile~
Yup. So I am smiling ◕ ‿ ◕

Yesterday I had reunion dinner.
With my paternal side relatives.
It was supposed to be a joyous occassion
But because of my daddy, after confirming it with my mummy,
It turned out bad. I mean it literally.
It's a long story so I shall skip the explanation.

Anyway, I still had some fun with my cousins❤



And I realised that they KNOW how to PLAY monopoly DEAL!
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
It's a little boring when I play with my sister
Cause there is like only TWO person. You get what i mean?
So ya I am soooooo happy about that^^

Tomorrow I seriously don't know what to do.
I don't think I will be going school?
There will be 4 hours break in between.
I can't possibly do nothing then.
I HATE staying at a place for more that an hour.
Seriously.

Seriously, I don't know why.

I don't like going school nowadays. Hmmm.
Maybe I am getting old and lazy?
MAYBE only^^

So I didn't go to school today.
I met my darling Jinye.
And we went shopping at Far East and Bugis.
It's been a month since I met her.
I had fun shopping and talking to her^^
She introduced me to this mee hoon kuay store.
It's really nice and filling.
And I am craving for it now~
I shall go eat again next week!
Ohh I am craving for Aston and Sakae too!^^

I think I am happy. But I am not.
I think I am bad. And that's quite true.
I tried to ignore. But I really can't.
I realised I do care. I am totally confused.
Ignore. Give up.
It's impossible. Cause.......*not revealing*....
I wonder when can I stop thinking.

Do you realised that people change easily?
Today they are good to you, the next day they turn away from you.
I experienced it, I felt so.
I admit I change too. But it's not that bad, right?
Hmmmmmmm.....
Since I am not going to go school often
From now onwards, I shall not be bother about it.
Be happy to be young^^

How? I am feeling weird again.

I can't describe it with words. I really hate it.
All my thinking and feelings are mixed up.
And I am thinking of funny things that seems like it's happening.
I really want this weird feeling to go away.
Please.

I tried to believe myself.
That I had made a right choice. And a good choice.
But this feeling makes me unable to.
Omg.
I told myself that I must let it go.
But I really can't do it.
Someone, please help me.

Ok I realised something again.

When I am at home the whole day, with the computer,
I will 'discover' a lot^^
For today, I 'discovered' a lot of BEAST.
And I am falling more for them~ Seriously!
I was touched by their songs from 'MY STORY'.
It's really amazing.
I had sooo many feelings listening and reading the translations.

Yoseob and Junhyung 'Thanks To..'

They dedicated this song for their fans 'BEAUTIES'
It makes you feel great being their fans.

Hyunseung and Kikwang 'Let It Snow'

It's just feels nice to listen^^

Dujun & Dongwoon 'When the Door closes'

The song is just 'Wow!'
I can't believe they composed it. Goosebumps.
I gonna support them more now^^ JUNHYUNG!❤

This is the best!❤ Onew & Junhyung together~
My 2 bias from SHINee and BEAST. Ahhhhhhhhh~~~

They are soooo adorable together~ awwww~

My stomach is really going to explode soon.
I can't believe that my dad was still hungry.
But the food are really nice
Especially the braised duck^^ Tempting.
That's why I didn't take picture of it.

Because I have nothing in mind now.
So I shall upload pictures^^

Another 1 more week and a few days~
It'll be Chinese New Year!
Hope time flies faster for now~

I am using my sister's itouch to post this.
And I actually think it's cool. Dots-.-
Anyway I had a great day today.
Sometimes it's fun to be with my family^^
They makes me forget those bad and sad things.
For a day. It's better than nothing.

Again, I made pineapple tarts.
But this time with many shapes^^
And with 3 more helpers.
Ailyn Xiaoqian and Rahim.(My sis and her friends)
5 trays of pineapple tarts done!

Xiaoqian and my sister started dancing
And wow! I am lacking behind....
I shall start learning all the dance TOMORROW.
If I am hyper^^

Hypocrites.
You are just afraid of your reputation.
I am not that dumb to be not able to see.
So stop pretending like you care.
Cause you are hurting my mum even more.
She is crying because of you.
If you have so much time and money,
To keep calling and pestering,
Why not spend it somewhere else or just donate it
Like you always teach us?
We dont need you to care about our family matters.
Damn you.
If you still wanna be a hypocrite,
Be a NICE one. Stupid school.

Finally another weekend!
I studied for 3 days in the row.
And I mean it literally.
I feel quite smart now~
This week is really good cause
Peggy's birthday happened to fall on Tuesday.
18th January^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I really LOOOVE Peggy a lot!❤
I am not a lesbian though.


^^Girls~

^^Class photo for Year 2!

^^Our 'couple' photo❤

So-called smelliest FOOD^^
It's nice though. With the veggies.

^^have mouth refreshener with you!

Because I don't know how to love- FT Island

The you I love, is leaving me
Though I haven't yet said a word in my defense
The you I love, says she wants to be happy
I haven't been able to say a word in pleading

Always, looking at your sad expression
I neglected you under the pretense of being busy
Because I was a wretched fool

I didn't know then
Because I didn't know how to love
Because I didn't know how to hold you warmly
That a soft heart
Would collapse and fall, I didn't know
And without thinking, I turned away from you

I didn't know then
Because I didn't know how to love
I came to leave you alone
Even saying sorry seems awkward
So I've passed you by again, pretending not to know

Even if you meet someone else,
He'll probably be better than me
Because of this, I'm sending you away
Even if I meet someone else,
It'll never be you
Because of this, I can't erase you

All that's left is a sorry heart
All I have left to say is goodbye
Even though my heart knows

I didn't know then
Because I didn't know how to love
Because I didn't know how to hold you warmly
That a soft heart
Would collapse and fall, I didn't know
And without thinking, I turned away from you

I didn't know then
Because I didn't know how to love
I came to leave you alone
Even saying sorry seems awkward
So I've passed you by again, pretending not to know

Even though I know now
Even though I know how to love
The person whom I wish to love isn't here

A love that has given only tears
I hope everyone will forget and be happy at all costs
Everyday, while crying, all I do is pray
That in my next life, I won't have a young love
When I really understand love,
If I meet you then, I'll take you into my arms
So that we'll only have happy dreams
Even though now, I'm sending you away

I committed a crime. A serious crime!
For the past 3 days.
I have been eaten a lot.
And I mean it~
I really hate weekends now^^

Friday I had Aston's with Huiqi.
The coleslaw is really 'omg! can I have more?'.


Yesterday, I had Nihon Mura.
Sushi and mentai! Yummy~❤

*drooling* That's why I was really full.

And just now, I ate at Ajisen Ramen.
I love the soup-py a lot!❤
But it's soooo oily~

I think I shall just forget about dieting
Cause it'll not work keke^^

I am into baking now!❤
It's really fun. REALLY fun^^
After making pineapple tarts, I tried something new.
SUGEE COOKIES~



It's a little sweet though.
But it's nice still✿

I'm FULL. Really full.
I'm gonna explode soon.
But food makes me happy^^

I'm tired now. Let's sleep.

I can't believe it!
I stayed back in school to study.
It's the first time I studied weeks before exams.
Amazing.

Since I completed my report assignment
So I helped my mummy to make
PINEAPPLE TARTS^^


^^Into the oven!

^^All done!❤

It's really addictive~
So I am afraid my diet plan
Won't work anymore...

I realised that:
1) emo-ing or feeling sad is
a waste of time cause I am doing nothing

2) I am going to complete my report
BODY + RECOMMENDATIONS^^

3) Lastly, I love fangirl-ing!❤
It makes me really hyper everytime~
It's more exciting than seating a roller-coaster^^

Homework vs TVXQ, TVXQ wins.

Homework vs SHINee, SHINee wins.

TVXQ vs SHINee, that's a draw^^

"Be able to endure the pain
And you'll obtain a strong heart
To face against further hardships of life."

"Maturity doesn't mean age;
It means sensitivity, manners,
And how you react. " -Pravin Todkar

Why does people changes so fast
That I had no time to understand and adapt
To their changes?
They changes too fast that
I had to doubt everything,
And I can't trust anyone.
I dont know.
I shall not care anymore.
Like what she says,
"Just be yourself,
Dont care about how people look at you
Dont need to please everyone
Cause no matter how much you please them
They wont even care.
And if you please them too much,
They get overboard...."
Thinking about it,
I think what she says is true.
It's tiring to please everyone.
Even if you please them,
They may still hate you,
They will still help the friends
Who are closer to them.
Everyone is bias. Including me.

I will do everything I wanna do from now.
Belly dance. Latin dance.
Korean. Air-stewardess.
I am soooo desperate to explore the world.
Cause I love having freedom and
Seeing new things^^

I really wish I were Wi Mary now.
She is loved by 2 guys.
And one of them is really "Awwww~he is my guy!"

24000 Japanese fans!
Pearlescent Sea^^
Key is really cute here.

"The same person who laughs,
Talks a lot, and seems happy,
May also be the person who cries herself to sleep"

Tired.Headache.Hurt.
Is this the moment when
People wants to just give up on everything?
Cause that's what I am feeling now.

I am tired.
Tired of pretending.
Tired of compromising.
Tired of trying. Really tired.
I am not emo-ing.
I am just saying what I feels now.

I am hurt.
Hurt as I fell down.
Hurt as no one cares.
Even the person I wants attension from.
Hurt as I tried. But I got nothing back.
I am not trying to get sympathy.
I am just saying what I feels now.
Cause it really hurt. Especially my back.

Maybe God is punishing me now.
For being such a bad person.
If that is it, I will just accept it.
Cause I admit it.

I shall be unhappy for now.
And forget everything tomorrow.
I must be happy.
So that no one knows I am sad^^
Cause I am getting used to cry in bed.

"Just because I'm crying,
Doesn't mean I'm sad.
Sometimes it means
I'm tired of pretending to be strong."

I am getting addicted to
"Oh,My School!" (or 100 points out of 100)
It's funny!
Especially Hongki^^
Jonghun and Minho appears on the show too^^

^^Hongki and MinAh❤
It gives me goosebumps~

JYJ and TVXQ-Homin will always be TVXQ.
Let's not divide them
And us Cassies stays as one❤

"Everyday I pray,
Praying that you will not love me,
Praying that you will hate me.
Cause I dont deserve you.
You are too good for me.

Everyday I pray,
'Dear God, please send him
Someone who is better than me.
Send him a partner
Who will love him for who he is.
Send him a girl
Who feels lucky to be with him. Amen'
Cause only then I will feel better."
~Anoymous

Mr Prata made me bloated till now.
But I still love it.
I know chinatown is for old people
But I dont know why I somehow love shopping there.
Maybe I am really growing old too fast.
Haiz. Who cares?
I must live the way I want^^

I wore my new dress today.
And I think I look pretty in it^^
I tried to be humble. But I can't.
What should I do? I dont wanna be a bimbo~
Hahahahahahahaha.

"Real friend is someone
Who will tell us personally
If we do something wrong,
not stabbing from the back."

This makes my day today:
1. I saw him today^^
Right before me. Juat a few metres away~

2.I drank Pudding milk tea

3. I don't have to go school TOMORROW.
[It's self-declared^^since there MAYBE
no lesson at all.]

4. I managed to go for the first lesson
TODAY although I was late?^^

5. SHINee^^

I'm a Cassie.

Always keep the Faith!
It's saddening to see TVXQ's fans
Bashing each other...
There is no such thing as
JYJ versus Homin.
Both are TVXQ. Always will be^^

See what JYJ said and let's wait patiently
For them. All 5 of them to unite.
"We’re not just any old relationship
That was together for a year or two.
There aren’t any misunderstandings towards the two.
Even though we’re apart,
We trust that they know our genuine honesty.”

"Our situation might look cloudy right now,
But we know that that day will come one day."
That day = 5 of them will stand on stage together.

"We’ve been there for each other at
Our hardest, most difficult, and most passionate,
All striving for one goal.
We dreamed the same dreams under the same sky,
So that door of possibility will always remain open.”
JYJ are trying their best
To get back with Homin,
So let's believe in them^^




"Once a Cassiopeia, always will be"

Guess what?
School starts today~
It was really difficult for me
To get up for maths tutorial.
So I went for the remaining classes only^^

3 more days to Vivienne's
First month.
But my uncle celebrated it today
Cause most of us could make it.



The food was mouth-watering!
As they were all my favoutites^^
Fried rice, Cereal Fish, Chocolate Eclaire...
*fats fats fats*
I shall forgive myself for today. Hehe.

This is Rachael^^

I love her the most~
Cause she loves to smile.
Her smiles makes you goes "Awwww..."
I will be bias^^

Victor is adorable too~

He shall be my second bias then^^

Eat.Talk.Play.
That's all for today.

"You have to move on
In order to move into a better situation.
Never settle for less than you deserve."

Nothing much happen today.
But I had my delicious 'mee siam'^^
So I shall show some of the lovely things
I found.
Firstly, BIG NEWS.
TVXQ will be coming back to stage
On 7th of January.
Although there will only be 2 members...
Always keep the faith^^


Next，Anthony Neely[倪安东]^^
If you watch Million Star[超级星光大道]
You maybe will know him.
He is sooo hot and adorable~


His song is nice too.


Lastly, T-ara's Hello Baby.
After SHINee's, they are next to look after children.
And it's not just 1 but 3！
Moon Mason, Moon Mavin & Moon Maden.
They are siblings. Really cute siblings❤


Happy School-reopens Day!~.....

First day of the year.
And I enjoyed it with my family^^
I got to drink KOI too!

It's one of my favourite drinks.
But I am on a diet now
So I am limiting myself to
One cup per week. Fighting!❤

Good Guys versus Bad Guys.
I will take both
Cause SHINee are under both^^

I sooo love Onew in WHITE~❤
It's like the prince in my fairytale.
Yup. I have my own fairytale.
It was made to keep me smiling^^
It sounds crazy but ya~
That's me. hehehehe.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hope 2011 will be
A happy and joyful year^^
I shall start to do all the things
I want to do.

And lastly, I hope K-pop
Will still be the trend^^
Cause...
Jang Gun Seok is hot.
At KBS Drama Awards.


SHINee is awesome.
At MBC Gayo Daejun 2011
And every other performances.