I think I get what God's telling me.
He wants me to give up right?
Cause I was the one who started everything.
I hope my instinct is right.

I had fun today with some of my classmates.
We played mario kart at the arcade. It's really exciting.
Tomorrow I will be meeting my darlings for sakae buffet at the airport.
*I am gonna gain avoirdupois*
So I guess I will be having another enjoyable day?
I hope by tomorrow I will be able to let go of it.
And I shall start studying on Wed.

Determination is what i need now.

I will only study from now on.

And nothing else. Maybe that way i can be really happy?

I am really hating the feeling i have now.

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Sometimes it's hard to be contented.
There's so many things that I want in life.
But during the past few days
I learnt a lot from my family and friends.
And I realise that I am really happy during the few days.
I am glad that God sent everyone thats around me to me^^

I just got back from Toa Payoh. I had my dinner at the foodcourt and
The milk tea is really nice~But I still prefer KOI. Keke.

I got my shampoo and olive oil for my super dry and damaged hair.
I really hate my hair. It grows slowly and is frizzy.
I wish there's some kind of hair surgery.
I got myself a sandals too!^^
I need to stop buying footwears. My mum is gonna scold soon.

Oh my mum bought my phone a set of 'clothes'.
And it's red^^ I LOVE red~
Cause it makes me feel lucky I guess?

Durian-licious~

I think f(x)'s song, Pinocchio
Is saying how I really feel now.
Ok maybe since last month?
Not the full song but almost the whole song?

I hope the song of my feeling will change soon!^^

I learnt a lot about my family just now.
It's good to hear each other being honest about
How they feel inside.
Especially my parents.
And I realised my sister have the same thinking as me^^

I cleared my mind about everything
That makes me feel heavy.
One of it is my grandmother.
On Mother's day, she asked me why I didnt visit her
During the holidays.
I told her I was working and went overseas.
Then she said, "See, my skin is wrinkled and old.
I am going to die soon. If I die, you cant see me anymore......."
I paused and changed the topic
Those images of her leaving flooded my mind since then.

I visited her just now before dinner.
And I felt better now^^
But she still thinks she's going away soon.
What can I do?

I love you, ah mah!^^

Why are all the night drama so sad?
My eyes are swollen every night~
I think my mum's crying too?
But she pretend she isnt?

Today I realised that without Peggy,
I think I will be suffocating.
Cause there isn't anyone else who will really sit down
Listen to me and
Give me advise and encouragement.
Others will be laughing at me if I told them what I told Peggy?

I wish I wish...
I wish that my life will be that simple
Shopping Friends Sleep Study Work Play Fun Love.
That's all.

But what I want now is...
Iphone 4!
I can give up my FOOD just for it.
Maybe I shall eat 1 meal less each day?

The battle between the heart and mind.
It's difficult to decide which to follow.
The heart seems right but the fear of it being wrong.
The mind seems wrong but the fear of it being right.
Why does the heart and mind feels differently at times?

Honestly I regretted making that choice.
But it's impossible to change it now, right?
I feel that the answer is right.
But I hope that it's wrong.
I shall let God decide then~

I think everyone should live your life happily^^
Don't bother what others say about you
If people dislikes you
It just means that God wants them out of your life.
So just leave them alone
And forget them.

Everyone is changing

It's just a matter of time.
But I hope I am changing for the better~

"You must be happy first so that you can make others happy too"
It's time to let go of all unhappiness
And live life to the fullest!
Heard that, ME?